The bit I am chomping on at this point is;
"Zeal for your house will consume me" John 2:17
Last Lenten journey I went "Inwardly Turning" which is, of course, a post here in my blogspot.
Part of my Spiritual and Church life is a Thursday noon discussion group. The texts and readings vary monthly. I really enjoy that as well as, for the most part, it is a large part of any Spiritual and intellectual dialog for me. This weeks reading is John 2: 13-22, where my self question is:
What does this one passage speak to you personally, today, about your Lenten journey?
My head works like a really messed up flow chart of images created by words, actions, relating cartoons, movies and music--creating articulation issues for me, jus' so ya know!
This year, I have gone by another way of trying to incorporate others. Or Outwardly Turning, perhaps! For some reason this is the continual popper for me; "Zeal for your house will consume me." It just keeps resonating to good, bad and indifferent situations and incorporative ventures and efforts. To the point that I can almost empathize via Jesus' emotions, discontent and passion on an actual real level. It really doesn't seem to be working for me!
To some degree this almost feels as though the most valuable and hardest to swallow tid-bit here on earth is "it really doesn't matter" like the destruction of the temple--so what it has been under construction forty-six years, and in three days I will raise it, however, loopholed or mattering--not what was thought mattered and or expected...
As well as, like the disciples, after they remembered and believed.
My "answer" to my self question/reflections is another question: Or is it working for/on me?
Why isn't my "Outwardly Turning" working or indeed is it??!!
