Friday, July 15, 2016

MINE, damn it! LOL

"Simplify your Life
Give up what you don't need and be glad you did"



I love this!  Boy and automatically where does my head go?  STUFF!

Clothes, shoes, Technological Devices, Knickknacks or Bric-a-Brac,
Cluttered up living spaces, Magazines, Recipe clippings, Coupons,
Overstocked; pantry, freezer and fridge,
Let us not forget--Junk drawer(s) and the I'll sift through these later, Piles…

After my mental break, in 2003, of a 17 day hospital stay severity.  I've got most of this whittled down to pre-assembled, break it all down with a phillips head and an allen wrench in less than a few hours, box it up and a $19.99 U-Haul is more than enough space than I need.  Truth be told, I still have way more than I actually need, (shoes, clothes, glasses), how I rationalize(?) this is it is a small way of "self medicating" or "self soothing" not to  a manic degree.  And I donate like crazy as I rotate seasonal "stock."

Maybe because my hand was pretty forced during those not a pot to piss in years, more than once did I move with next to nothing, because I had no one to help and no money anyway; just some clothes, a chair I could carry, a few other things a few bus rides could carry--my cats too…
Regardless of how it happened, I am better for it!  How so, makes me dig deep:
  • I am never really worried about anything, the only thing that I go out of my way a bit to protect in my living quarters is my boys (cats).  Added security, carriers at the ready accompanied by an old school 3G LG Rumor2 prepaid.  Just in case!
  • My spirit or sense of being feels lighter and brighter the more open things are.  The real behind less is more.
  • I feel more secure.  I don't know how to explain the insecurity that came with having all this crap.  As I reflect almost an anxiety at times like where will it all go, how will I get there, I need these things because they are mine…MINE--Yes, that's it!  I no longer feel these/this = MINE. 
                                                   I've lost the MINE attitude and learned POSSESSION is NOT security

Let's follow this thread
To the next place, which always makes me giggle that it doesn't jump first, "material" does…

Simplify…Giving up what I don't need internally…glad you did:

Addictions, Prejudices, False Self, Selfishness, Control,
Complicating & Compromising, Last Word,
Greed, Vanity,
Revenge,
                           Fear;


                             Be love rather than "seeking love"
                                                                                            }     outwardly…
                             Be me rather than "seeking me"