Comfortable Silence

Eternal "Secrets"

surround

stop and see

hear...

As you can see from the tabs on this blog, there are months I have much to say and months I appear idle.  Some of that I chalk up to my Bipolar--yes, I own it, it is mine, we coexist most often comfortably but, like any and all couples, we have our moments and disagreements. 

I digress...

Until fairly recently, I chalk this up to the Spiritual Director now in my life, see and hear need not always be shared makes sense.  I don't always need to say or share anything.  Some "secrets" are to be viewed, felt, contemplated, logged, blogged for just me and God.  All too often I found myself feeling I needed to get it out, needed to get something, anything, out. 

Sometimes God does not desire to speak through me, rather, to me

The #asheepsruleofthumb 'hint and twist of lime' here for me is; stop, see, hear; just live, live the transformation, share that:

Philippians 4 NIV

^"8 Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. ⁹ Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you."

Pictorials

My Earthly Heart

shall beautifully bleed

all the while

my soul
rooted in you...

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Mysterious

Wisteria

rope-like braids

encase the common

cascading

as love and prayers

upon us fall...

"On Demand"

Do you remember a time you wanted something SO bad you were willing to save forever for it?

Patiently collecting any spare change, counting every day?  Excited by a quarter found on the street--making it twenty-five cents closer to your reach?

Finally reaching your monetary goal, overjoyed an understatement, couldn't get to where it was at quick enough, even if not opened yet?  Finally, just when having it in your hands was enough-- an unexpected sweetness;

     an additional 20% off at the register or something like that?

Set with me a moment and just reflect…


seems like lifetimes ago since I have felt…FELT the above contradicting feelings fully and completely all at once...really allowed myself to be with and feel all those things at once.  

                                       wow--I gotta have that, giddy

                                       impatient, why can't it be today

                                       grrr, I could just ask for the cash

                                       proud, it will be better to wait and save
                                       sad, I really wanted to go skating

                                       unique, no one else has anything like it, etc.  

Sacrifice or the thrill of the ride, if you will, "the end justifies the means."

Often for me, it was some 8 track, record, cassette tape or CD--something I didn't really need but really, really, wanted.  And played repeatedly, having to use a bit of 'elbow grease' to get to my favorite song quickly; FF-STOP-PLAY-STOP-RW-STOP-PLAY!

(how's that for progressively dating myself)

Here's the #asheepsruleofthumb 'hint and twist of lime' - is that not what I'm being called to do today? 

This Lent, it is the little things and quiet, what I want (or need) to take up and give up.

Everything now so accessible "On Demand" - being pulled away from that…

                                                           Open Invitation 

Not just for Lent--