Sitting Duck

Like a sitting duck

many thoughts?

or

none at all?

time will tell

for now

like a sitting duck

isn't so bad

not bad after all...

"worship"

What a true blessing, as a usual, but as I awaited the bus sitting on the steps of the adjacent church such wonderful conversations and interactions, with folks.

I very well could've waited on my own porch however, I love sitting here and the music from an across the street church was already in full swing and can be heard almost all day Sunday from my humble dwelling.

Today as I sat making chit-chat with everyone going in and out, greeting those who attend this particular church while I am killing time, being pleasantly invited to not only sit here, on these close to the bus shelter steps, whenever but stop by whenever--

I realized there was a time when even going into a church was so uncomfortable, or the thought not really scared me but freaked me out because I knew I was not 'church bred'.  I didn't grow up having church as a part of my life.  I often would think no, I can hold it while walking around rather than even stop at a church office to ask if I could go to the bathroom because I didn't feel I'd know how to properly ask.

I see now that I feel much more comfortable.  A humble comfortable, bigger yet, I have found my own "Christ" alive and well that even if not "proper thoroughbred"  religiously or denominationally ("Denominational DNA" quote).  I am properly 'bread' in Him... universally!

To the Bay was where I was headed to "worship."

I should say, that I am a member of a church currently and I am struggling.  I am mentally ill and that is not talked about.  I also am learning that much of what I have spent time in therapy learning of myself is; stop, figure out what I feel and why and then proceed with calm conversation is being repressed to regressing...unfortunately, seems no one talks 'real ' freely in the church, is what I am feeling.

The bad:  risk of undoing what I have worked hard on.

The good:  sermons and worship and church are everywhere I am!

Live Lovingly

One day, when time and space matter not;

I know it is your heart

meant to beat

with mine...

How Great Thou Art (Throw Back)

For any who disbelieve,
the Lord God does indeed walk with me.

I see Thee
I hear Thee
I feel Thee

and

Thou doth know me inside and out.
On any given day Thou shows Thy face
in many deeds, words and others,
divinely.

Mysterious as it may be,
I KNOW it is Thee,
as I humbly acknowledge
Your presence day to day,
I joyfully give you thanks and praise!

How Great Thou Art...